The Unspoken Secret

" best nyer!!tadika dah lepas..sekolah rendah..here i come!!"

i enter the primary skewl, SRK Jalan Tiga...and aku masuk gak skolah agama. bes dow skolah agama abim. really2 njoy that time, with the hafazan kelas, bahasa arab, hadith, feqah, bacaan. miss all of it. and at that time, i was introduced to a gurl. but back then, she was a shy gurl, and i had the mind set of, "kerek dow dye tuh. anak orang kaye. paham2 la..." but in the end, she is still my fren.

it was at standard 3. i never thought i would made a step that change my life. i was qualified for the PTS. she was there too. for PTS candidates, there will be a special class just to touch up our knowldge and tips to answer the questions. i still had the same mind set bout her."kerek2..." but actually, she was just shy, and not social. but in the end, she is still my fren.

eventhought i had that mindset, i still can reach her and talk wif her. at that time, i was really2 unmatured. so, i can hye and touch anybody that i like. that was the past. syauqi, elfera, me, she and many more. we seems to njoy that tyme, the lower primary skewl tyme together. but in the end, she is still my fren.

yea!!i pass the PTS. most of us, the candidates passed the PTS, including her. on the first day i started my new life as 90's batch,but i heard that she didn't do the "lompat" class. i was amazed, because she is way smarter than me. we lost contact. she live her life, and i live my life. but in the end, she is still my fren.

years by years, i njoy my lyfe at SRK Jalan Tiga, SMK Jalan Tiga, MRSM Tun Ghaffar Baba, and Universiti Teknologi Petronas. the njoyment of living the lyfe i had now made me kinda forget my lyfe as the 91~and the part that i regret the most is, i forgot my frens. shit me. how ever, it was on march. syauqi msg me and said,

"wey, kitorang nak wat reunion nieh. she nak fly rusia, tuh dye nak jumpe korang2 balek."

i was like,

"ow..really? i'Allah"

but syauqi push me to come to that gathering. i imagined lots of her frens gonna come to that gathering, having a gathering party, and me...will stand alone, without anybody to talk with , and chat with. but i said to syauqi,

"ye la2..aku datang.."

how ever, things wasn't as i imagined, it was just syauqi, elfera, me and her. hahahaha!~i laughed my ass out that time. but we had a nice chat there, lots of things were talked about. reminiscing all the memories. n_n . lots of things bout us change and one thing that was so...so...obvious was her. now, she can smile, she can talk, she can laugh, and she is so full of herself, but in the end, she is still my fren.

"pergh, dye dah nak fly dah nieh. tapi naper la mara anta tyme raye? bengong tul .saper nak anta dye? ade ker yang macam..igt kat dyer??haih...",

it was a sad fact for her. so, i've decided to accompany her on her last days in m''sia before she flew to rusia. i've spent most of the tyme, msgging her. i heart to chat wif her. she is one special gurl. PELIK~hahaha.. day by day, hours by hours, minutes by minutes, seconds by seconds. heart started to beat fast. in the end, she is my crush.

it was her departure day. i accompany her starting from morning till evening. and then she gone busy bout her flight. i ddn't hope for her to cntact me back. it's her family's time together.but she did call me. n_n.. in the end, she is still my crush.

she still cntact wif me when she is at rusia. she even past her rusia number. i was really pleased, and hepi for it. we still do all the talking and chatting. she's hepi there. untill one day,

" aku rase, aku nak ade bf la. bf ikut season" she said,

"ko memang sengal la."..

"ala, bior r. aku nak blaja dow. hehehe...ko nak jadi bf autumn aku?"she asked.

"oh..sure~" i answered.

and then, we got into an autumn 'serious' relationship. we had so much fun. and she really did the learning part. she is one crazy gurl. bengong un ade...PELIK2~

and the autumn will end in 1 day left. she was hepi bout it, and keep talking bout her planning of not having a bf for the winter.play for the fall, and njoy hols at m'sia during summer. but me?hurm... i want her. hehehhehe~

then i asked her.

"kalo aku nak jadi ur bf for all seasons..boleh?"

"serious ker?" she asked.

"ye la" i answered

without any hesitation maybe...

she said,

"boleh2~"